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~ I have learned. Learned I need something to hold on to.
I have learned I need to live in the moment.
Not in the past that you cannot change, not in the future that might not be there.
Live in the moment and enjoy the journey,
wherever it is taking you... ~

For those of you that have missed me, I have not disappeared. I have been stuck though. Have you ever felt that you couldn’t move forward?
I have been dedicated for over a year to work towards my first bodyfitness competition. I trained like I never trained before, I ate clean, like never before. I was disciplined, dedicated, like never before. It worked, I built my body like it was never before.

When the day came of my moment of fame, I enjoyed it to the fullest! Had the best team to support me around, trainer, stylist, and friends for mental support. I felt like a real star! The day started early. I enjoyed my mashed sweet potatoes and a nice shower and traveled to the theater where I collected with all the other athletes, the one more beautiful than the other. I got ready in my bath rope for spray tanning and situated myself in a quiet corner; some relaxation with my earplugs in. Stress will do no good for your looks on stage, so I better relaxed! My hair done nails done, everything done! Then came the minutes I needed to prepare for stage. My trainer relaxed me, getting me ready with some exercises and final posing practices. Adrenaline!

First time on stage, I got called out for the first round! That sounds promising! I looked at the jury, smiled, and performed for the public. I did well! Next time on stage, bright shining lights aimed at me. I did my T-walk like I was born to do this. Calm, relaxed and fabulous. That went quick!

Then, I was just waiting for the results. I got called on stage first, 6^th place! Confusion arose in my mind; only the girls on the first 5 places will be accepted for the B class competition. Not me? But I was good enough to be there on the stage with the other winning girls! Feeling of pride, excitement and happiness! I did it! And I was satisfied with my performance on stage!

Feeling happy and tired after this long day, I thanked all my supporters and drove back home for a good night of sleep. Most girls craved for junk food the moment they get off the stage. All I wanted was just a good night of sleep. The first days after the competition, I went to the gym to do some workouts and eat relatively normal. Then, the cravings started and I took a break from training. I thought; well, let me give myself some rest and enjoy some sweets! Sugar is addictive, once we had some sugar, our bodies is craving for more. My body was not used to getting in food that high in sugar and in such large amounts. It reacted heavily and soaked up everything that I ate, resulting in a big, bloated me. This is really demotivating, especially since you have been in your best shape ever just a couple of weeks ago. I was ashamed that I gained wait this quickly and to go back to the gym to face myself in the mirrors there and was afraid for the reactions. That is where I got stuck. Stuck in the corner, for a little too long…

Getting out of this corner took time. Working towards a goal helps me. This is why I have been working on some goal setting for myself lately. It gets me motivated. 

There are a couple of challenges coming up! One if them is a photoshoot! Stay tuned for updates! 

Remember: 

The competition: Enercup

Hi All! In this blogpost I would like to tell you more about how my preparations for my first Body-fitness competition are going. Also I would like to introduce to you; the Enercup! This is the competition I will will be competing in. 

Enercup

The competition will take place at the 5th of Oktober. This is only 25 days left! So excited and nervous already at the same time. Time goes by so fast! The Enercup is a beginners competition, they call this an 'open-C competition'. What it means is that everybody can compete in the competition. When you are ranked in the top during this competition, you can go to a B-class competition, and when you win such a competition you can eventually go to the A-competition. 

Preparation

So far my preparations for the competition are going well! Trainings are hard and doing cardio in between the training days. Also trying to keep to a strict eating schedule. This is what I find the hardest; still experiencing some cravings every day! I try to satisfy those with a nice sweet protein shake or protein pancakes. Work for most times! ;) 

Also, I have been shopping for my out fit on stage! I probably will receive it this weekend and go for a fitting. I just love the bikini's in the Body-fitness class with all the *Bling* and the high heels! Which bikini I choose is still a surprise! You will have to wait for the competition day!

Excited to share more of my journey the upcoming days!

The start!

Mission:  I will work it, I will push myself to the limit, I will get it done!

Goal: Body-Fitness competition. 

I have been working out with weights since my exam period during Spring 2013. When training almost everyday with heavy weights,  and clean eating, I saw quick results. My body changed, and it happened faster than I thought. I love this feeling, I love to see the changes of my body! Over the summer I still kept improving and improving. Fairly ripped, fat percentage of less that 18% (which resulted in my case in a 6-pack) and felling very fit and energetic.

When the new trimester of my Master studies started in Fall, I found it more difficult to stick to my training schedule and to eat clean. There were a lot of socials organised where we went out for diner or drinks. It is hard to say no to such occasions. Slowly, I saw my body weakening, and turning gradually back to it's 'old' shape. This did not improve my slight Winter-depression, I usually experience during the cold and dark days. When I looked back at the pictures on my Ipad I made of my progression during that summer, I got to motivation back again to go training and eating clean. But this time, I decided to go hard! No excuses, just get it done, b*tch, I said to myself! And that is when I decided to compete in a Body-fitness competition.